I remember a line that Bono sings/says during a song or maybe it was in a book; it may not be his words but he says them and I remember them. Something along the lines of “don’t become a monster in order to defeat the monster.”
We really need to not become monsters to defeat the monster of racism.
Recently I’ve been in a bad mood, being crabby, grouchy, whiny, pouty, sullen. It’s not an unfamiliar place, but I don’t like being in that place as much as I used to. Mostly because I’ve experienced joy and happiness and I like those feelings more, even if those feelings don’t always last as long as the others.
A friend who is quite busy these days took a few minutes to tell me about gratitude. Gratitude does change things. It changes your focus from the few bad things to the many good things. And even if it’s more bad than good, focusing on the good keeps your mind from the gutter and thinking the worst, when the worst hasn’t happened or may not happen at all. It’s entirely possible that the very best could happen.
The situation doesn’t change, but the perspective and mindset changes. And if you think, therefore you are.
A trend in denim jeans is having holes in them. Depending on your age, you may immediately think of the 80s-90s where holes in jeans were cool, just like big hair.
I never got into the trend of holes in jeans unless it was made naturally through normal wear and tear. Plus they cost more to have someone to cut the holes in fashionably appropriate places. So that’s a hard pass for me.
Until…I went to a clothing swap.
I was looking for some new-to-me jeans and wasn’t having much luck on finding anything that seemed remotely like my style. Towards the end of the swap I was willing to look again at the denim piles and saw these 1969 Gap jeans in really good condition. As I turned the pair around, I saw the holes and thought it was a so-close-but-no-cigar pair. But, as I said, it was toward the end of the swap and I needed to find new jeans. So I just took them home without trying them on.
I put them on and found they fit perfectly. The holes were kind of annoying and I figured I would wear them casually, in the level of formality above joggers and below jeans with no ripped anything.
But they were so comfortable and the right shade of blue that I ended up wearing them often. What made the jeans truly mine is when I got compliments on the jeans, for the holes. Suddenly, I was cool. And I’ll take that anytime. No need to reject a compliment on being fashionable.
So now I am trendy with ripped jeans. I never would have bought them in a store, and I probably never will. In that sense I am still me and that will never change.
Today I checked on my fundraising campaign for charity: water. What a surprise I found! My goal of raising $450 was met yesterday! It really stumped me, yet why was I stumped? Why did I start the campaign if I felt as if it could not be done? Perhaps I wanted to see what could be done. My expectations were not high enough, but I’m glad that they were exceeded!
I’ve never campaigned for any sort of cause before, even though the issue of clean water has always caught my attention. This year, for my birthday, I wanted to take action, and it’s amazing how one small decision is going to impact a community somewhere that doesn’t have access to clean water! It has a global impact!
While in every way I am amazed by my friends who have donated (some of whom I haven’t seen in years), I am becoming aware of the impact of one. And that I can impact the world in a real, practical way to total strangers! It’s empowering, revelatory, and slightly terrifying.
How much more can I change the world in a positive way? There is so much negativity, stupid arguments, and endless distractions in our lives. It is time for me to stop procrastinating, dawdling about, and only wish for change when I can actually do something to bring about change.
This week I’ve started to flesh out a story synopsis that I wrote a couple years ago. I hope to make it into a short serial e-book for Amazon Kindle. It’s not easy to write, but I know I must write it and see what can happen. I have been wonderfully surprised today; how much more excitement is out there?